America the Beautiful Experiment
A while back, I started a series called “Letters from My Father,” a sort of writing exercise to see if I could write in the voice of a parent to his children. While it was more of a joke and a sad attempt than anything worthwhile, it did reveal a lot of what I was seeing in the world, as well as the pessimism in my own heart.
I embarked on writing this series for my own gain, with the hopes that one day, my own children will look back on it, maybe laugh, but overall stand proudly because their father spoke candidly, purposefully and truthfully. However, due to recent events, I may have to change my tune entirely.
The world is on fire, and the point of maximum combustion lies in America. From global warming to police reform, these issues are locked in the kettle of the COVID-19 quarantine, and the United States is the indicator of how things will end up for the rest of humanity. A contest of combatting ideas, to see if peace is achievable, let alone feasible.
Yet, as diverse as these talking points are, all of these problems are tied to one thing: the sinful heart of man.
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If you’re a Christian reader, I hope you’ll agree that sin is the root of all our problems. If you’re not of the religious leaning, I think you can at least agree that no matter how much good people do, there is always a seed of evil waiting in their hearts. It may be inherent greed, lust for power or just some taught behavior, but like a weed, it grows and hides itself among the grass, hoping to blend in and infest. Unless it is completely gutted and treated, it waits to spring up again.
And here is where I’d like to start striking and digging. We are simply pointing fingers and yelling one-sided solutions. It doesn’t matter which side you’re on, we’re all dragging each other down (although if you’re on the side of white supremacy, you are most certainly wrong). There is a lack of civil discourse to exchange ideas and properly debate.
We’re quick to judge, slow to listen and even slower to think, and yet people continue to run their mouths without any regard. All the while, we haven’t checked ourselves for the hatred, selfishness and ignorance in our own hearts, of how our words and actions will affect those around us.
For those asking for dismantling the police, what are you going to do about those officers that no longer have a job? Will you provide training and new employment for them, or are they going to go into private security and perhaps perpetuate or exacerbate the problem? What happens when you send a mental health professional in place of an peace officer, but unbeknownst to all, there’s a gun involved? Is it justified to attack or kill an officer due to the whole force being deemed an evil? Are their lives worth any less than yours?
For those that think slavery and racism are relics of the past, why are there systems still in place, including redlining, gerrymandering, and the criminal justice system, that are disenfranchising a single people group? Why is that when curfew is called, a vehicle with black occupants had to be stopped when there were other cars around it? Was it justified for an officer to kneel on the neck of a handcuffed, unarmed man and kill him for the world to see, just because he had a criminal record? Was his life worth any less than yours?
Here’s something to consider: there is the argument that we can’t have any bad apples within the police service, but have you considered bad apples in society? The ones that think themselves above the law, better than others or just plain old want something and use force to get it — what shall we do about them? Are we going to excommunicate or eliminate them because they are “bad apples”? If so, are you prepared to make those decisions personally? Like really, are you going to hold someone’s life in your hands and say, “It’s better if you’re not on this earth anymore,” and then take it from them?
Let me be clear: black lives matter to me. Sanctity of life matters to me. I would go as far to say that all lives matter to me, no matter how terrible a person may be perceived, even though as I consider that, I don’t know how merciful I’d be if faced with the killer of my loved ones in an empty room. But just the fact that I have to make these notions this blatantly evident signals a loss in communication and the bastardization of one’s beliefs on simple sentences.
America is in a really huge mess in which every piece is interconnected, and we, its citizens, have allowed it to happen. All of us are complicit, whether you like it or not, whether you take an active stance for either side or sit on the sidelines twiddling to see who comes out on top.
I urge you to use some logical thinking for either side, for all sides, for all arguments. Because lately, I’ve seen a lot of filth being slung, and now we’ve lost the true color of the room, let alone our sight. And if you identify as Christian, it’s especially damning that we can’t think clearly on and apply our own Saviour’s teachings. (Go back and read Romans 3:9-31.)
And once you’re done thinking with your mind, I ask you to search your heart. What is the ultimate goal? Is it truth and justice only? Is there reconciliation in the endgame? Is it to have things go back to normal? What is “normal,” and if so, why? What is the point? Seriously — what the hell is the point?
So quick are we to jump on bandwagons, blindly repost things and paint statements with huge sweeping strokes, which in itself is an atrocity because it leaves no room for nuance. But when it comes to sticking out your neck in empathy — and for the Christian, to share the Gospel and lead in love — we largely do the absolute minimum, only to shrink back into our shells in blind assumption that others will carry us to the promise land, without even knowing if these others have our collective best interests in mind.
And I feel like I’ve only hit the tip of the iceberg here in listening, learning and discerning…
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I cannot shake the eyes of George Floyd looking into my soul, crying out for help. Seeing a man die forever changes a person; that can never be unseen. His pleas are wrought into my heart, instilling so much sadness and consequently, revealing so much of my own shortcomings, guilt and shame. His cries shine the light on what is wrong within the heart of man.
I, for one, must confess that I am sitting with everyone else on the Internet, posturing behind my thin walls of safety with my hands in my pockets. And the saddest, most humiliating part is that I feel I can only say that because my friend said it first. That is the true definition of cowardice.
Honestly, I’m tired from even thinking about all of this, arguing for all sides, attempting to be level-headed and equitable — just trying to find even one good answer. But if I’m tired, those that are systemically marginalized, oppressed and attacked on a daily basis must be exhausted.
By building these walls around us to protect our own livelihoods, we’ve created our own personal echo chambers, and essentially blocked and rooted out hope. Without hope, how can anything good survive in this environment? It will shrivel and die, asphyxiated by the knee of endless arguments.
It might just be better if we let this all come to an end, be done with it. Don’t bring any more into this world. Mankind had our chance, and ironically, we were not kind to each other. In fact, we combusted our chance straight into smithereens. Personally, a side of me will be glad when everyone is dead, for humanity thought it was the saviour and greatest thing in the world, but was actually its own greatest enemy.
But I will not be glad that my friends needed to die, that my friends’ children needed to die, that friends I have yet to meet needed to die, and innocence had to die for the sake of some final, peace-seeking end. That people just out for a jog, resting at home after work, buying Skittles from the corner store, calmly trying to produce paperwork for a registered firearm, and merely shopping had to die — just so the violence and pain can stop.
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We can’t rewrite history. It’s in the past, and there are no do-overs or time machines. We can only acknowledge and admit our mistakes, and then try to improve. Sadly, if you’re around my age or older, I feel that we’re already too old, settled and on our way out. We and our elders have messed up, whether directly or indirectly, and too much time has passed for us to create effective, foundational change. We’ve failed miserably to improve upon our ancestors, because they figured we’d fix things, and now we’re hoping that the next in line can fix them.
And yet, I still try to hold fast onto hope, because America is an experiment. It is the experiment. It might not have started out that way, but it has evolved into it. This is the testing ground to see if the world can cooperate, where peoples of all races, religions, orientations and beliefs try to live it out to form a peaceful society. We’re having a pretty rough go of it, and there’s a lot riding on this. However, I do believe success here means success around the world, and I want success for the sake of the next generation.
That should be our focus: not on ourselves at our present needs, and certainly not the establishments of the previous generation, but on the building towards a better future for this upcoming generation and those that follow. And if these protests and calls for change on police reform or global warming by these young people are any indication, the only fire in our future will be the passion in our hearts, for progress in unity.
It’s not to say that my generation or older generations can’t do anything more or are completely useless. We can still actively participate and support. However, I think the one thing we are tasked to do as a collective, is to impart honest and right wisdom through history and experience to equip our youth with the tools necessary for a better tomorrow.
And so, to anyone in college, high school or even middle school that may happen to be reading this — or anyone that wants to take a stand for change — I offer you the words of those much wiser than me to hopefully be a guiding light. (If anything, just read Dr. King’s Nobel Lecture. The link is at his excerpt.)
Dave Chappelle, from The Bird Revelation:
[On speaking about Me Too] You can’t make a lasting peace this way. You got all the bad guys scared. And that’s good, but the minute they’re not scared anymore, it will get worse than it was before. Fear does not make lasting peace. Ask black people. And that’s what it is. What this city really needs… Without irony, I’ll say this. The cure for LA is in South Africa. You motherfuckers need truth and reconciliation with one another. Because the end of apartheid should have been a fucking bloodbath by any metric in human history, and it wasn’t. The only reason it wasn’t was because Desmond Tutu and Mandela and all these guys figured out that if a system is corrupt, then the people who adhere to that system and are incentivized by that system are not criminals. They are victims, and the system itself must be tried, but because of how systems work is so compartmentalized as far as information, the only way we can figure out what the system is, is if everybody says what they did.
Cathy O’Neil, from Weapons of Math Destruction:
Racism, at the individual level, can be seen as a predictive model whirring away in billions of human minds around the world. It is built from faulty, incomplete, or generalized data. Whether it comes from experience or hearsay, the data indicates that certain types of people have behaved badly. That generates a binary prediction that all people of that race will behave that same way. Needless to say, racists don’t spend a lot of time hunting down reliable data to train their twisted models. And once their model morphs into a belief, it becomes hardwired. It generates poisonous assumptions, yet rarely tests them, settling instead for data that seems to confirm and fortify them. Consequently, racism is the most slovenly of predictive models. It is powered by haphazard data gathering and spurious correlations, reinforced by institutional inequities, and polluted by confirmation bias.
Rev. Gene Joo, from “Unmasking Racism, Starting with Me“:
Racism, like COVID-19, must be identified and diagnosed before it can be treated and traced. An unmasking must take place. And it’s easy and convenient to diagnose it in unjust systems external to ourselves. It’s much more painful to pinpoint it in one’s own heart. But racism will never be rooted out and dealt with on a systemic level until it is first confessed and lamented on a personal level. It has to begin with me.
Rev. Owen Lee, from “Even If It Costs Us“:
We Asian Americans will be put in situations that are going to be similar to the situation that this Asian American cop [Tou Thou] found himself in.
We will be there when racial injustice, big or small, happens to our black friends.
And when it does, may we not stand around as cowards and do nothing. May we have the courage and love to do what is right and just — even if it costs us.
Ephesians 4:25-32:
Therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another. Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil. Let the thief no longer steal, but rather let him labor, doing honest work with his own hands, so that he may have something to share with anyone in need. Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.
Romans 12:9-21:
Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.
Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight. Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., from his Nobel lecture (1964):
Let me close by saying that I have the personal faith that mankind will somehow rise up to the occasion and give new directions to an age drifting rapidly to its doom. In spite of the tensions and uncertainties of this period something profoundly meaningful is taking place. Old systems of exploitation and oppression are passing away, and out of the womb of a frail world new systems of justice and equality are being born. Doors of opportunity are gradually being opened to those at the bottom of society. The shirtless and barefoot people of the land are developing a new sense of “some-bodiness” and carving a tunnel of hope through the dark mountain of despair. “The people who sat in darkness have seen a great light.” Here and there an individual or group dares to love, and rises to the majestic heights of moral maturity. So in a real sense this is a great time to be alive. Therefore, I am not yet discouraged about the future. Granted that the easygoing optimism of yesterday is impossible. Granted that those who pioneer in the struggle for peace and freedom will still face uncomfortable jail terms, painful threats of death; they will still be battered by the storms of persecution, leading them to the nagging feeling that they can no longer bear such a heavy burden, and the temptation of wanting to retreat to a more quiet and serene life. Granted that we face a world crisis which leaves us standing so often amid the surging murmur of life’s restless sea. But every crisis has both its dangers and its opportunities. It can spell either salvation or doom. In a dark confused world the kingdom of God may yet reign in the hearts of men.
Katharine Lee Bates, from “America the Beautiful” (1911):
O beautiful for patriot dream
That sees beyond the years
Thine alabaster cities gleam
Undimmed by human tears!
America! America!
God shed his grace on thee
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!
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